i-cannotdraw

It’s hard to talk with a crowd inside your head. It’s a father, it’s friends, it’s my equilibrium. It’s a ghost.

New years eve, 4th of July It's raining bullets get the F.B.I. Praying and hoping one hits me and I die Your goin’ thru my head like a bullet from the sky What goes up must get us high Did you really think i would disenegrate & die?

Trying hard not to look like I'm crying that hard Failing miserably at everything, especially that Making up worlds in my head because I can't sleep thinking of who could make a better me than me Maybe I'll shoot myself Maybe then I can go Then I'll be free to just evaporate, disperse, or implode Picking at holes in my skin There's so much blood on my jeans Not feeling lonely, I just like being alone I've called everyone already but no one knows Why 2 meals, one band, two paychecks are more than I can handle Mathematically that can't be more than one life Bottom of the world, can't find my socks He knows I'm stuck between two things, but I

I wonder how your metaphorical trip's going I wonder if she knows you're hiding It’ll probably take some more convincing New Yarmouth is a long way from Connecticut I watch them try and ridicule me I try to focus hard cause my eyes are tearing up I try to work up the courage to tell them to stop And i wanna die as much as you'd think I watch as they try and kill me I'm Breathing calmly, then i try to catch my breath. I just can't find the motivation Or find any of the right things to be motivated about I know these people if i don’t wanna do it Then they are probably just gonna make me You can never tell what they want Ever

Isn't it strange? Crying can sound like a melody If you try hard enough. Isn't it strange? The things you hate in life Are the things you're the best at. Isn't it strange? That a life can collapse From just a tiny shove? Isn't it strange? The reason you hate yourself Is your self hatred? Isn't it strange? That you can be okay And in an immense world of pain? I think so. The

Sometimes people need to restart their lives, Join a sports team, dye their hair, move away, get new friends, But sometimes people just need a break from their normal lives They need to just take a break from their friends from their style from their self hatred And these are the people who have no identity they've changed it so many times they forget who they actually are And these people need someone to care about them Someone they can be friends with and not have to reset ever again

Well every time you come on over I just wanna listen I know you got some issues and I know that you just miss him I got a fever just to see you feeling like a sucker And didn't know I'm really good at making you feel awkward I'm at a party, met her boyfriend, I can barely see And every time I talk to you, no, I can never breathe I'm getting drunker I'm a bummer I should just call her And didn't know I"m really good at making you feel awkward Didn't know I'm really good at making you feel awkward I got no job I got no money, got no self esteem I'll take a Zanex every morning for anxiety I'll take a beer and take another, then I'm go

I have this dream that I am hitting him with a baseball bat And he is screaming and crying for help And maybe halfway through it has more to do with me killing him Then it ever did protecting myself And I believe that yeah, maybe no one is perfect But I believe that you are pushing your luck It just sucks it played out like this A terrible turn of events You can tell I don't give a fuck But you look like shit And so do I Can I sleep in my bed? And when I crawl out in the morning Can I stay inside my head? Cause were in high school And I just need something more like real life And you were okay, as a friend But I was just more like the side